Thursday, February 10, 2005

hA hA ( faking a laugh right now.. dun even feel like smiling... i am crying 10 mins from i wake up till now.. still feel like crying... hA ha... even though i woke up at 12... haha.. woke up by dear msg... ( okie.. this one ish realli smilez) but hiaz... feel like crying since new year eve.. nv realli cried out.. even da nian chu 1... didnt cry out... yeah... finally... called emi juz now and cried to her... T.T we both got our own problems... lurve her so much.. always been there to listen to me... yeah.. i will be there for her too... hope her dad temper will be better.. and hope my mum too! yeah... hope she wun give me so much stress.... dunno... feel like giving everything up now... everything.. maybe i shld stop studying... and go to work now.. and 3 yrs later shui pian find a guy and jia le suan le... den she will get nth to nag on.. nth... i will have sufficient time to slp to do house work... to watch tv.. to do anithing... yeah... and i will lead a boring peaceful life from now onwards... y not right.. haiz... wishful thinking... i wun let go of my dreams... and ... ... zZz... wad a new year... it suxs to the core.. dun dare to put on make up now...i scared i might cry... and i realli feel like crying... how?..........................