Friday, September 02, 2005

I AM BACK!!!

omg, i miss my freedom` haha... it is 859am and i am awake.. cos i gonna help xinyi with her work! wee~ she ish gg to finish hers soon` recently she veri hiong` she pia her project until like crazy` almost nv sleep` even ginli oso find so` dunno wad's wrongwith her... like hiding from sth` trying to keep herself busy`ya hmm` i need to keep myself busy too! any jobs lobang` please ? but every hr muz at least 6 bucks pefer non-retail work` cos i am actually quite sick and tired of RETAIL` yes` i hate retail!! and i am in fashion` okie` remember arh` any job lobang muz call me` In need for $$ and a place to waste my time`

i am reali gg to complain abt every thing` every fuvking thing tat i can think of` i mean this semester is totally a disaster for me` it make me cant go on` i can tell u the fact tat i didnt actually do very well in some, although i put in alot alot of effort. and i really nv sleep well` can sae less den 5 hrs everyday` eeryday is a panick to me.. i think this goes on for a mth plus le` cos my com totally cannot support photoshop and freehand` and... it always auto-shut down at nite.. make me crazy` so i onli can do stuff in school or in my bf hse` so sad rite. this results in constantly in panick` every moment i dare not let my guard now cos i noe tat once i reach home i can do nth abt my project` wad i could do is work work and work` it is so god-damn stress` plus stress from my mum` she doesnt like me to go to my bf hse tat often and she doesnt allow me to stay over... everytime i really need to stay over to pia project` she freak off` i see her like tat i oso freak off` it is like KNS` i really need to do project` and she wants to think of sth else.. sometimes i rather i am educated in a ang mo way` free about everything` no need to worry tat late go home will get scolded` no ned to worry tat go bf hse will get scolded.. okie basically, i get scolded for every single thing.

when u are in the mist of PROJECTS and u still have to woryy abt other things? esp worrying to get scolded? really tired. i noe she dun feel good` she think i feel good? i am treated like i am SOOOOOO CHEAP` waiting desperate to jump on a nan ren bed` if she wans to think this way` den please dun even give birth to me` for wad u give birth to a despo? i rather die`

asking everybody if you haven sleep well for so many days` or sae u didnt slep until u constantly think u are floating ` will u still pack ur room`? i am really tired to have a mum who really constantly nags about particullary EVERYTHING. i am really tired. no energy . no strength. and she dun understand y we treat her like tat. she dun. she sae we nv think in terms of her. did she think in terms of us. i really tried to do everything le. really`

complaining about lecturers`

RICHARD`
this IDOITIC lecturrer here is my APPLIED Principle forEFFECTIVE LIVING lecturer. which is a LAME COURSE! it sux` if u dunno how to be a good person. u wun noe` u think having such fucking course will make us a bneeter person? u think an ah beng go and listen to some talk on principle they will turn good? all this are fucking shit` and he keep on herping on telling PEOPLE NOT TO BUY THINGS` esp ladies. wad cosmetic designer labels blah blah blah`
ezcuse me. do he noe who is he talking to. we are designers cum merchandiser here leh. wad he wans? ask us to quit course? den for wad TP set up this STUPID course? for my last project on this module. i did on old folks home. and guess wad he asked me? i think you nv did any community work since u came to TP. you did to do tat next sem` wad the hell? when we dun have enuff sleep. we still need to do and help some aunte pick rubbish or we shld run around in mid nite helpping old folks to clean hse. SERIOUSLY, DOES LECTURER TREAT US AS HUMAN? THEY DUN! and i told him. no time. he sae really? really no time.. STUPID IDOIT! think of how many subjects we have. and how many PROJECTS U GIVE! den i sae OF COURSE, and i started with my attitude. WE DIDNT EVEN HAVE TIME TO SLEEP` and he said really? den how come tat guy over there can still go to clubbing. den i told him` TA"S HIM NOT ME` WE DIDNT EVEN HAVE TIME TO SLEEP` den he let me off. BUT WHAT KIND OF SUCKING ATTITUDE IS tat? in design. it is not how much effort u put in. we can work until like crazy but u can still get an f or d becos u misinterpret the lecturrer brief and some fucking lecturer also speak in abstract way` KNS` or even. get drag down by GROUP PROJECTS MATE. when we have lazy people esp those qian jing da xiao jie. and malays girls. (not racist but most of them are those LOAFERS in black list` ) who nv do anything and expect GRADES! and their individual SCORES cos they got more time to do their individual things!

DUN EVER TELL ME TAT NO EXAM VERY GOOD. it is nV this way` can u imagine wad kind of life we are living? NO LIFE. every day. go home. on com do project. morn. on com. do project. go school.

VALENTINO CHAN` he simply sux` he is one guy without his own stand` he might seem a nice guy` BUT. hey` hai dao wo lor. his brief = no use because wad ever he write is not wad he wants. he nv realli sae out wad he wants. and we are in dilemna. and those hardworking students will be in disadvantage becos. he said mon hand up and actually i finish le.. and realise non have finish and until next wk den i realise tat THEY ACTUALLY GOT ONE MORE WEEK to DO` wad the HELL IS VALdoing?

jacob lesson is dead right boring. i feel tat christine teach us better. dun really catch him` i used to hate him` cos he is so boring. end of the day, i found tat he is actually a nice person. after talking to him` and he gave marks according to work done.

Christine, her lesson are definaely great but.. she is abit bias bah` haha.. tat;s wad i feel. but she is definately a good CM compare to sylvia. looking foward to my batch de graduation show`

Vani, no doubt she is the best language teacher. i am so lucky to get her these two sem. i hope i get her for the next communication too` although i might not fare as well but... i definately will learn alot more.

Anja is like a fake person. dunno y. juz seems to think this way` i still feel tat she should give more time to those whgo really cant finish.. 50 % is too much a deduction. if at the end of the day tat person doesnt hand up den deduct lah` it ish nv too late. although i hand in on time` hahah`

Irene, she should realli be more understanding to students. mnow we are in FAST system. we dun have so much time to do her project` one Dark Angel make us nv do so many project` this is really bad` and the last project is so boring. plus STOP MAKING US TAKE PICTURES. it is so irritating to do gui xin shi` juz get a pass to take every retail store in singapore. tat will be great`

goerge, nthh to sae abt u. THINKER but dun u think tat u think too much and sae too much until ppl dun understand you? and throwing unnecessary comments at ppl? u think u are tat great? when i really do his project and not sleeping the next day the comment i got is u nv do my work. i am dissappointed. can i sae tat u are brainless..

in conclusion. my posible gg to fail subjects are COLOR and BBR ` i really dun wan to fail` but. LECTURERS wad can i do` really nv really sleep le.. wad they wan us to do?

to dear. thanks for everything. i really dunno wad to do to show tat i appreciate u. but. i definately noe how much u love me`

sometimes we juz assume too mcuh`nv assume. and nv make assumption tat some people nv do sth. u nv noe wad he or she feel`

tired.